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Hi. This is Lorien. I blog a lot of my feelings. Which means keysmashing and gifs. I write and draw now and then, and social justice comes up a lot. This blog should also have a blanket trigger warning for depression.

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feministdisney:

einsteinonacid:

I really tried to capture his facial expression.

hahaha boy in outer space

maybe they just rub me wrong since they’re always explained by some pouty faced dude, but these posts always seem to roughly translate to,

“Dear girl, I know you must be insecure not because the world has told you a lot of specific instructions about how you have to dress and look a certain way in order to be happy and beautiful and to have people like you that is reflected and reinforced in all the tv and movies we watch, the magazines we buy, the commercials that air-

I know the real reason for your insecurity must be that not enough men have told you today that your face looks good no matter what you put on it. Now you feel better, right?”

Anonymous Asked

QuestionI hope your medication works for you! Mine worked well for about... 6 or 7 years? And then I continued taking it for another 2 or so when I really should have gotten off it -- apparently long-term anti-depressants can start messing with your brain chemistry in a similar way to the depression (I wasn't depressed, but SUPER emotional and moody). And your doctor seems great, so that's obviously a good thing. I don't really have any more to say, so have an excellent night! Answer

Oh geeze, anti-depressants are totally kind of a shit show aren’t they? I mean, my experience has been that so far they work really great for about a month and a half and then trail off into stress like before, but… Well, I guess they’re most definitely better than the alternative, so.

You have a good night too!

Anonymous Asked

QuestionSame anon that asked the question about understanding straight people. Don't have a tumblr account (as you can tell by the fact that I'm on page 85 of your archives in about 48 hours, tumblr is a bit of a time-sink for me). I hope all the stuff that's been going on with your family works out in the best way possible for you (and everyone else involved, but mostly you). You are an amazing person. :) Answer

Hahaha, I had the sense that it was the same anon but it’s hard to be sure. :)

Here’s hoping my family works out okay, yeah. I went to see my doctor again today and we had a lot more time to talk, and she supports me on medication and my decision to not talk to my dad without a counselor present, so that’s good. Mom won’t argue with a proper doctor, ahahaha.

I dunno if I’m amazing really, but I’m totally will to take a compliment! :D (Plus you MUST know, you’re willing to trawl through 85 pages of my archives over two days…)

dyke-recovery:

Hal Sparks | You’ve been saying those phrases backwards. Now, stop it. (x)

(Source: antiquers)

Anonymous Asked

QuestionWas reading through the archives... how did that art history final go? Your essay/rant sounded interesting, haha. Answer

Funny story, I never checked my grades! :D So I honestly have no idea. Maybe some day I will check them, but right now it’s a horrible source of anxiety to consider so uh xD;;;

I totally forgot about that though, maybe it’ll be a goal for the next week or so to find out?

(also why are you anon i totally find the idea of someone reading my archives like totally charming! <3 )

"Nonviolence declares that the [First Nations] could have fought off Columbus, George Washington, and all the other genocidal butchers with sit-ins; that Crazy Horse, by using violent resistance, became part of the cycle of violence, and was “as bad as” Custer. Nonviolence declares that Africans could have stopped the slave trade with hunger strikes and petitions, and that those who mutinied were as bad as their captors; that mutiny, a form of violence, led to more violence, and, thus, resistance led to more enslavement. Nonviolence refuses to recognize that it can only work for privileged people, who have a status protected by violence, as the perpetrators and beneficiaries of a violent hierarchy."

— Peter Gelderloos, How Nonviolence Protects the State. (via skepticamongthefaithful)

(Source: caughtbythehalfmoon)

cheatthis:

If you say she was useless in the Avengers it means you’re not worth my time.

The people who say she’s useless are invariably geeky douchey neckbeards, who are the most useless fucking people on the planet. They’re just pissed a woman is so much better than them.

(Source: lizayzay)

claudiamachadoribeiro:

Mari Makinami Special.

claudiamachadoribeiro:

Mari Makinami Special.

strangewaydown:

Say it with me, “G. S. M.”

stitchmedown:

strangewaydown:

gynocieum:

strangewaydown:

tuanthecat:

closetospring:

galesofnovember:

I will seriously die, and/or be dragged off on a sled to Sibera, screaming defiance before I will ever willingly be a part of a “community” that is “open” to asexuals or demi-sexuals or straight kinky people or straight poly people or…

How the hell do “asexual” and “polyamorous” fit into this community thingy? At this rate we might as well just let the heterosexuals and strictly heteroromantics in as well because teabags or whatever the fuck it is.

“GSM” stands for “Gender and sexual minority,” meaning asexuals and polyamorous people (AND straight kinksters, etc etc) are included by dint of not being heterosexual missionary position with the lights off.

WHICH IS EXACTLY WHY IT’S PRETTY MUCH USELESS OUTSIDE OF A SOCIOLOGY CLASSROOM.

Oh. That’s special.

Still hating on the quiltbag thing, though. Don’t think the GSM thing needs to apply to me though, considering I am pretty sure I know more lesbians than anything else these days. I’m not a minority.

DAKOTAH I MISS YOU

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH

TOO MANY STRAIGHT BOYS IN SASK

SKLJSETUL

LOOOOOORIEEEEENNNNNNNN

I MISS YOU TOO. YOU NEED TO COME BACK AND BE QUEER AND FEMINIST AND INTERNET-Y WITH ME SOME MORE. :(

SOME DAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY

here’s hoping that i can move back at some point in the next few years and that you don’t then MOVE AWAY

i hear that’s what people who finish school do, y’know? MOVE PLACES.

adventuresofcomicbookgirl:

idesofnovember:

This is one of my favorite Usagi-moments of all time. I bring it up whenever I’m asked to wax poetic on why she’s my favorite.
This sort of self-possession and confidence and grounding and awareness and total lack of pretense and thickest skin ever is as inspiring as it is unrealistic for a young teenage girl but exactly why I think you need a role model like Usagi along with your Ami-like role models out there.
I mean, the insults (failure, flat-chested, flighty, worst there is!) are thrown at her in her friend’s voices and she’s like “ha ha I DON’T CARE!”
I mean, Usagi SO MUCH doesn’t care she even throws in a little fake-out just to mess with the droid.
She’s used to people telling her these things (she’s like “seriously, hurling insults at me in Rei’s voice was supposed to be some surprise torture or something?”).
I mean, to be fair, the droid picked some bizarre things to pick on her about. Usagi has insecurities (just like Ami), but she’s harder to break (as seen in - off the top of my head - Stars when she’s the only one who doesn’t fall for the mirror illusion etc) for a lot of reasons, but I think partly because, yeah, she has a really strong sense of self and a bizarre amount of confidence. That’s also why she doesn’t embarrass easily, why she commits social taboos, why she is so flagrantly open with her feelings, why she can be selfish and childish.
It’s not completely a positive trait, but hey.
Like the droid said, “what sort of personality does this girl have?”
And Usagi’s all, “well I chose to take that as a compliment!! <3”
Probably the type of personality who could take ruling the world for over 1000 years. You need a thick skin for that.

All of this, because this is definitely one of my favorite Usagi moments too. And in a filler ep! “WHO GIVES A DAMN? I’m used to people badmouthing me!” It’s like you said, she has this specific strength and toughness that allows her to resist people trying to shame her and control her- because she has faith in herself WHILE knowing she’s an incredibly flawed person and knowing that others know it. But she still gets it done. And that’s why she’s the hero and such a unique kind of hero. And her going out of her way to pretend she’s affected just so she can throw all the fucks she gives in its face- flawless. Usagi can sass and troll with the best of them.

adventuresofcomicbookgirl:

idesofnovember:

This is one of my favorite Usagi-moments of all time. I bring it up whenever I’m asked to wax poetic on why she’s my favorite.

This sort of self-possession and confidence and grounding and awareness and total lack of pretense and thickest skin ever is as inspiring as it is unrealistic for a young teenage girl but exactly why I think you need a role model like Usagi along with your Ami-like role models out there.

I mean, the insults (failure, flat-chested, flighty, worst there is!) are thrown at her in her friend’s voices and she’s like “ha ha I DON’T CARE!”

I mean, Usagi SO MUCH doesn’t care she even throws in a little fake-out just to mess with the droid.

She’s used to people telling her these things (she’s like “seriously, hurling insults at me in Rei’s voice was supposed to be some surprise torture or something?”).

I mean, to be fair, the droid picked some bizarre things to pick on her about. Usagi has insecurities (just like Ami), but she’s harder to break (as seen in - off the top of my head - Stars when she’s the only one who doesn’t fall for the mirror illusion etc) for a lot of reasons, but I think partly because, yeah, she has a really strong sense of self and a bizarre amount of confidence. That’s also why she doesn’t embarrass easily, why she commits social taboos, why she is so flagrantly open with her feelings, why she can be selfish and childish.

It’s not completely a positive trait, but hey.

Like the droid said, “what sort of personality does this girl have?”

And Usagi’s all, “well I chose to take that as a compliment!! <3”

Probably the type of personality who could take ruling the world for over 1000 years. You need a thick skin for that.

All of this, because this is definitely one of my favorite Usagi moments too. And in a filler ep! “WHO GIVES A DAMN? I’m used to people badmouthing me!” It’s like you said, she has this specific strength and toughness that allows her to resist people trying to shame her and control her- because she has faith in herself WHILE knowing she’s an incredibly flawed person and knowing that others know it. But she still gets it done. And that’s why she’s the hero and such a unique kind of hero. And her going out of her way to pretend she’s affected just so she can throw all the fucks she gives in its face- flawless. Usagi can sass and troll with the best of them.

sengis:

it is also important for people to remember that for decades, including very recently, lesbians in film were either perverse predators who died at the end (or were shown to end up alone and bitter) or were women led astray by said “predatory lesbians” who were eventually saved by the Love of A Good Man (even wikipedia covers this!). as recently as 1991, within my own lifetime, there was a bisexual woman depicted as a sexual predator and a murderer in Basic Instinct.

there is nothing progressive or subversive about writing a woman that states that she’s gay and then having her fall in love with a man. it’s been happening since the fucking 1930’s. I won’t accept the same tired tropes that my grandmothers saw. real representation is not hurtful.

And then there’s Notes on a Scandal, which is from 2006 and features an old woman who preys on a young woman and emotionally manipulates her right up until the end of the movie and gets potentially dangerous. And at the end of the movie, the young woman goes back to her husband and the old woman is bitter and alone… And starts the process again with a NEW young woman.

Predatory lesbianism! IN TWO THOUSAND FUCKING SIX.

(Source: abrokenfishbowl)

Say it with me, "G. S. M."

strangewaydown:

gynocieum:

strangewaydown:

tuanthecat:

closetospring:

galesofnovember:

I will seriously die, and/or be dragged off on a sled to Sibera, screaming defiance before I will ever willingly be a part of a “community” that is “open” to asexuals or demi-sexuals or straight kinky people or straight poly people or…

How the hell do “asexual” and “polyamorous” fit into this community thingy? At this rate we might as well just let the heterosexuals and strictly heteroromantics in as well because teabags or whatever the fuck it is.

“GSM” stands for “Gender and sexual minority,” meaning asexuals and polyamorous people (AND straight kinksters, etc etc) are included by dint of not being heterosexual missionary position with the lights off.

WHICH IS EXACTLY WHY IT’S PRETTY MUCH USELESS OUTSIDE OF A SOCIOLOGY CLASSROOM.

Oh. That’s special.

Still hating on the quiltbag thing, though. Don’t think the GSM thing needs to apply to me though, considering I am pretty sure I know more lesbians than anything else these days. I’m not a minority.

DAKOTAH I MISS YOU

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH

TOO MANY STRAIGHT BOYS IN SASK

SKLJSETUL